Is He real? He is. Where is He? There he is. Who is He? He is who He is.
I grew up believing in Him. i grew up knowing that there is Someone who sees, who understands. But when i was younger i thought i need an answer.
When some things don't make sense, you get curious, you ask questions , you doubt, you wonder. But what if there is no definite answer? What if there's no one who knows?
No one answered what i asked long ago but eventually, my life itself became the answer. I am here because of Him, therefore, He's real. He knows my aspirations, my inner wants. Even the hidden secrets i keep inside, He knows. That's when i know, He is here inside me, living in my heart. There He is. i asked where He's from, what does He do, what is He, who is He. And then there's me. i actually wondered who am i as well. why am i here and what i really am. but He answered it with every move and every challenge i took and still taking.
In my existence (not that old though) I've been through a lot. they said teenage years is the most frustrating period in anyone's life. I've been through thick and thin. Discrimination, misconceptions, sometimes i thought i don't even matter. but every time i thought myself as a useless frog, He always shows me that this useless frog deserves something. He knows that i don't ask for much. i just ask. and whatever, and i mean WHATEVER, He gives it to me. in the best way, even others would think it's the worst, trust me. it is better than what anyone could give. it is the way He believes i deserve. and it's always the BEST.
After nightmares in the middle of the night, talking to Him is the only thing that can calm me down.
i made a lot of mistakes. things that i eventually repeat afterwards. and i feel stupid. sometimes i feel that i don't deserve to even talk to Him anymore. but every time i come back to Him, every tear, He will wipe it away if you'll just bow down to him and ask for forgiveness.
When there's none, even a single soul that i could turn to, voice out to, reach out to, when there is none, even one. there He is. He hears me, even the silentest prayer. Even my sad hums and empty screams, He is there to listen.
Who is He? He is my Best friend, my Provider, my Savior, my Safety, my King, my God, my Arms, my Legs, my Voice, my Eyes, my Entire being. and yours too.
Do i still ask? Do i still doubt? Do you still need more answers to BELIEVE?
I DON'T. i don't need anymore answers. because now i have FAITH. and that is all enough. Enough to know that one day, after everything, after my life comes to its end. i'll be there, In His arms. I KNOW. BECAUSE I HAVE FAITH.
Thank You Oh Lord.
-- That Wallflower xx
I grew up believing in Him. i grew up knowing that there is Someone who sees, who understands. But when i was younger i thought i need an answer.
When some things don't make sense, you get curious, you ask questions , you doubt, you wonder. But what if there is no definite answer? What if there's no one who knows?
No one answered what i asked long ago but eventually, my life itself became the answer. I am here because of Him, therefore, He's real. He knows my aspirations, my inner wants. Even the hidden secrets i keep inside, He knows. That's when i know, He is here inside me, living in my heart. There He is. i asked where He's from, what does He do, what is He, who is He. And then there's me. i actually wondered who am i as well. why am i here and what i really am. but He answered it with every move and every challenge i took and still taking.
In my existence (not that old though) I've been through a lot. they said teenage years is the most frustrating period in anyone's life. I've been through thick and thin. Discrimination, misconceptions, sometimes i thought i don't even matter. but every time i thought myself as a useless frog, He always shows me that this useless frog deserves something. He knows that i don't ask for much. i just ask. and whatever, and i mean WHATEVER, He gives it to me. in the best way, even others would think it's the worst, trust me. it is better than what anyone could give. it is the way He believes i deserve. and it's always the BEST.
After nightmares in the middle of the night, talking to Him is the only thing that can calm me down.
i made a lot of mistakes. things that i eventually repeat afterwards. and i feel stupid. sometimes i feel that i don't deserve to even talk to Him anymore. but every time i come back to Him, every tear, He will wipe it away if you'll just bow down to him and ask for forgiveness.
When there's none, even a single soul that i could turn to, voice out to, reach out to, when there is none, even one. there He is. He hears me, even the silentest prayer. Even my sad hums and empty screams, He is there to listen.
Who is He? He is my Best friend, my Provider, my Savior, my Safety, my King, my God, my Arms, my Legs, my Voice, my Eyes, my Entire being. and yours too.
Do i still ask? Do i still doubt? Do you still need more answers to BELIEVE?
I DON'T. i don't need anymore answers. because now i have FAITH. and that is all enough. Enough to know that one day, after everything, after my life comes to its end. i'll be there, In His arms. I KNOW. BECAUSE I HAVE FAITH.
Thank You Oh Lord.
-- That Wallflower xx